Politico ( http://politico.pro/2dvNjqp ) – The day I decided to take my own life.
The day it felt like I was dying.
The moment I had to kill myself.
The time I lost everything I had, and now I have nothing.
I’ve tried to kill the thought of my family ever again.
But I’m going to try and keep living, and when I can’t, I’ll stop trying.
I had an incredible year.
I have a new job and a new family, and I love it.
It’s the best thing I’ve ever done.
My goal is to help people understand that there’s nothing like a good old-fashioned, gutsy day at the office.
And the more I understand what I’m getting into, the more it makes me feel like I’ve made a big difference.
I think if I keep doing what I do, I’m gonna be fine.
The past year has been filled with ups and downs.
I remember being at my office one day and my boss was asking me how many people I had on the team.
I said, I don’t have one person.
I was like, That’s OK.
I’m not even a team member anymore.
I’m not sure I can handle this anymore.
I am exhausted.
I feel like my heart is beating out of my chest.
I try to stay positive.
But even if I get caught up in the moment, I can feel myself sinking back into the abyss.